me, myself & I. Pain, pain, just pain. I just want to be normal. I just want to be skinny, to have cotrol again. All I habe ist my fucking ED. I just want to cry.
I want to purge. Now. I want to purge all this fucking shit I ate yesterday.
Yesterday I binged so fucking hard and did not purge!I hate myself for not purging! Now I am feeling so sick and sad and soooooooooooo fat! Now I have to starve…. I hate this fucking ED! I wanted to become healhhy, I was three months in therapy, but I am just loosing now. The fight against my ED becomes day by day harder. I just want to cry. Somebody who understands me, who says it´s okay not to be okay.
Hmmm I think I will try it ;D
my goal weight —> 48 kg <3 or 105.6 lbs <3
Pretty girls do not eat.
I love this dress so much! & I swear I will buy this when I have reach my destiny and have the perfect body!
We can do this! ;D
So guys totally I have lost about 33 lbs and I hate myself so much! The las night at 2 pm I binged so hard my stomach hurt and I couldnt purge because of my family! It was so cruel to have all the food in my body. So I gain 2,2 lbs and I started to cry today.
I decided now to start fasting again till sunday and in this time I will live from diet coke, water, tea and chewing gum :DDD <3
If anyone of you want to fast with me, you just have to say it :D it woukd be great! ;D :D
And I am so sorry´, but I had been the last time very busy, but now I want to become a true pro ana! <3
Love you all! <3